That was also the reason she was so reluctant to go in the first place, but of course Jil being the unmoving shield that's oblivious to anything thrown at him never noticed. After a year, she's settled down into a new lifestyle. It doesn't grant her satisfaction as a tourist guide, but it does let her to almost forget about the past, and blame all the pain from her betrayal on Neeba & Kaaya. Even if what she says is true and Jil isn't a replacement for Neeba, he's still someone she's rather fond of, and will happily live with.

This journey throws everything out of balance for her again. She's revisiting old times. She'll have to deal with her unreturned feelings again if it turns out there wasn't a "betrayal" at all. She could lose Jil to Kaaya. Even if she didn't come along, everything of Fatina's was put on the gambling table when Jil decided to climb again.